My son just smacked his head into the side of his crib while sleeping. I heard it on the monitor.
I took a deep sigh because I knew he was going to cry. I braced myself for it. Prepared to grab my robe and rock him back to sleep.
I watched in shock as he shook it off, got himself stable, and lay back down to sleep.
I realize now I was tense in that moment because I desperately wanted to lie down. I was relieved that he was okay and that he was going back to sleep. But that tension was still in me.
It made me consider how many times a day I am tensing up. No wonder my body feels wrecked!
This snapshot is just one small moment when I was tense. How many times am I tensing up? How can you release this tension? What impacts does this have on my body?
So many questions!
At this phase of my motherhood journey, I’m leaning into understanding myself more holistically.
Motherhood has forced me to shift many of my priorities and to accept help from my community. I’ve held more space for change and vulnerability than intended.
In other words, I, the introverted, responsible, independent person, have felt the weight of being a first-time parent.
It’s scary, fun, terrifying, adventurous, curious, wild, and fantastic. It’s a dream come true. It’s a lot of different emotions, all while still trying to become yourself again or at least figure out who you are now that your entire life has shifted.
But that’s just me. That’s what I’m feeling right now. Some can relate, and others may have a completely different feeling.
And there’s space for all of it.
✨ Nova Skye ✨
Rooted Skies 